|walk back to you
||[Sep. 4th, 2001|07:42 pm]
ambition for my life is fading,
down those pale slick faced walls i walk
with a tear down my cheek
and face plastered to the floor.
nothing to anyone out there
and nothing to anyone inside me.
so little time
and nothing to do.
i can't take being lost all alnoe
except with you.
i have nothing i have no one
you took them all away
and here i sit all alone
waiting for the times you say you love me
and hold me close,
and whisper in my ear the sweet dreams you have for us.
those few and fading moments
when i know what i cannot have
is real and ever binding.
sinking in my hell on earth
i thought of you as my air
now i think of you as the hand that holds me back.
teach me all these new things
then turn your back
and walk away
like i was born to take all this
i'm tired now,
and i can't sleep,
cause you seem to need a fix,
and i am the only one with a mouth like that
and the only one who tastes that sweet.
and i am the only one, who cries when youre done,
and drive back home
and goes to sleep
absorbed in my nightmares of what tomorrow might bring.
i just can't do this anymore.
i thought that you loved me,
but that must have been a lie
for the only thing you love
is my legs and whats between
and i can't take it anymore.
depression sets its slimy hands once more upon my soul
as i crawl back in with open arms
and leave behind to all of you
the memory of a happy girl and the things she'll never be.
her veiws on things so solid and thought out, picked through and rethought, understood and fought for.
i'll leave you with those smiles rare and distant.
and walk back to you in the gloom and grim solemn face i thought i had lost for good.